What are words,

I really wished you could have been nicer towards me.. Chris Medina is such a great guy, he really inspires me. I can really feel him, I believe that's what called true love. It's really sucha sad song! I think I've hit the replay button for like uncountable times. Guys should really learn from him! I left work earlier I simply have no mood to continue with it. Anyone have any idea whether Singapore Poly's department of academic is opened now(during holidays)? I haven't receieved their letter till now and I'm worried sick! ( about my place this year as I actually deferred last year) WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW?!!

I just want to say: Whenever I pick out something bad about you, the only reason is that I want to help you to change to be a better person. No other meaning. But you can actually choose to break up with me again, after all my explanations. I don't know if I should even be explaining to you, but I guess I don't owe you any explanation anymore. I want to ask you, like the song above, what are words if you really don't mean them when you say them?

I can give you those assurances when you needed, while all I get is 'break up' from you when all I wanted to hear was your gentle voice, assuring me. I really don't think I've let you down in any ways, or maybe I'm just not up to your expectations. I have no fucking idea why we'll end up in such a sour relationship when we were so loving and sweet in the first 3 months. I can't think of any reason why. It's been 6 months now. We talked about it, we compromised, we said we will go back to how it was at the start. Why can't we just see a change? How happy we were when we were on our first date, when I decided to give you a chance to be the guy I'm going to rely on for life.. Sometimes, when you're angry, you just don't think. You don't think why I'm doing this, you don't put yourself in my shoes. You just think you are right. Maybe I was like this too in the past, but why can't you see the change in me, it's all for your sake. I've got so many whys in my head.

I love you, no one can ever take away the memories of what we once had.