Expect the unexpected

As you can see from my title, you know something has happened. This is to remind me not to trust anyone fully ever again. The more you love, the more you get hurt and the more the disappointments. I thought we agreed we'd start anew? I took it for real. Maybe you took it lightly. There are just so many things on my mind right now. Ask me, how did i spend my days. I cried to sleep, woke up midnight thinking about them and cried again, slept unknowingly, woke up in the morning to find myself crying again. You guys might think that I am a cry baby. But do you all know what exactly happened? Have you ever loved someone so much, trust someone so much yet finding out stuffs that you won't wanna know?

I always tell my friends you're unlike the other guys out there, i have total faith and 100% confidence in you. I am so proud of you. Do you know??

Why am i getting hurt again and again, can't you tell that I really love you? For you, I changed a lot a lot. I'm not gonna spell out anything. But because of you, I will not trust any guy anymore. Up till now, i still can't believe it. I kept telling myself "No, he is not such a person. He will not treat me like this. I am different from the rest." But i realized I'm only lying to myself. Why do you facebook me whenever you can? Why do you call me when you've the time? Why do you get so worried when I'm going to a classmate's birthday? And the worse is how can you bear to do such a thing to me if you love me? Then if you don't love me, why do you want to keep me? I have been questioning myself all day and all night. But i really don't know the answer.

Looking at all our memories, the uss, the zoo, the ecp, the sentosa, the ice skating, the 1st valentines day, the 1st overseas trip, I can literally feel my heart crying. A girl who waits is worth to marry? I have been working so hard, what for? I made so many plans when you're coming back, what for? To allow you to make a joke out of me?

I'm tired, I don't even have the energy to quarrel anymore. Anyway there's not even a need to quarrel this time round. What's the use of making promises when all you do is to make empty promises? Chances given should be cherished, isn't it?